Bus, road, and rain

A bus and road, always been very cooperative.
but now I hate them, since I could picture memories
The sweet-everyday-goodbye and all, was there on Wednesday.

I got on a bus to my West town.
But the road has managed to slow the bus down.
Then the storm came toward me, it was raining on me.
Along the road, in the bus.
They were mocking me. I knew it.

They wanted me to get off, to go back by another bus.
Another bus that says "Far far away to the East part!"
But why should I?
I'd rather cope up with the pain, than go unnoticed.

So there I was, rain on me in a bus along the road.

two years and one month

never being noticed,
always insecure

never loved, feels like standing beside a tree.
it felt so unworthy, and i felt so worthless.
waiting was the least i could do,
but it was never been in your mind.

I know you're happy now.
but no tear would drop, no more.
For you...

all bottled rage and confusion was there,
in one straight sentence I've said.
but you said, "whatever".
Always been, whatever.

And I've had enough...
Enough for you to fool me,
enough for you to trick me.
No more mercy, no more care..

for two years and one month,
You never care..

some words I produced on twitter when I'm down.

"I hate crying like a baby on the phone and in front of you, but how could I be strong when you're not with me?"

"i miss you, I always miss you, but you forbid me to do so, so I lie to myself and to you :("

Viacom ugly toys.

Spread the facts to your friends!

November

This is a song by Azure Ray. It is called 'November'.
How funny to find this song which is exactly the same as I feel when I look back to 4th November 2008. Painful.




So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
Oh,
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks that you're not here
And i think I'll want to be alone
So please understand if I dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know
Ohh..
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

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However, saya sedang sangat mellow bulan Februari ini.. :"P ada beberapa puisi yang sedang dalam proses pembuatan dan juga pertimbangan haruskah go public atau engga. (ciaahh gaya bet)

Hope you have a great day today, coz I know I will!!
Salaam.

You like me... Not many people do. For that I thank you.. :)

H: "hello soulmate"
me: "hahaha.. hello dude"
H: "lol i know.."
me: "i've just finished my dinner." ---> (have you eaten dinner?)
H: "im eating pasta"
me: "any veggies in there?"
H: "im eating more non meat foods then anything."
me: "how about eggs?"
H: "i do like omlets."
me: "my final exam of this semester will be over on this saturday..phew."
me: "omelletes"
me: "omelet" (uuurghh i forgot how to spell it!)
H: "omelet... omellete.. omelete"
me: lol
H: "either way it's good"
me: "so do u have any plan for this weekend?"
me: "(i sound like i'm about to ask u out) :P "
BUZZ!!!
me: "oh no.. don't tell me you fell asleep"

...
five minutes later
H: "im getting there.. it's 6am"
H: "sorry"
me: "you havent sleep at all?"
H: "ive been out"
me: "are u working today?"
H: no, thats why ive been out"
me: "ok. are u going to take a rest or u still have other things to do?"

(you sent me a youtube link. it was B.E.P - imma be)
H: "too bad you don't live down my street"
me: "why?"
H: "to dance"
me: "i can't.."
H: "everyone can dance. i know you can dance"
me: "i don't go to clubs or parties like that"
H: "dancing is fun"
me: "i know"
H: "i dont want to say what i want to."
me: (confused) "ok u dont have to"

H: "what are you doin?"
me: "trying to stay awake. i'm full and i'm getting sleepy
H: "then sleep"
me: "must not sleep with a full stomach"
H: "i should be asleep"
me: "then sleep, please.."

H: "you get me mad"
me: "what? what have i done?"
H: "because someone that is very kind lives so far away from me"
me: "aaaww thats really nice"
me: "are u drunk? :p "
H: "lol. why that. out of everything you think i am drunk"

(webcam)
H: "i see you"
me: "good"
H: "hello. i look horrible."
me:"you look very tired"
H: "i am. you see the bags under my eyes?
me: "yup"
H: "damn. i've been awake and working since 6am yesterday
me: "whoaa"
H: (trying to make the puff go away)
me: "that's impossible. all u have to do is sleeeeeep"
H: "hahahaha i know"
H: "well duhhh"
(vanished)

me: "wow you were vanished!!"
me: "why are u smiling like that?"
H: "cause i was watching you"
me: "i hope watching me would make u more sleepy :)) "
H: "hahaha... no. :)) least than that"
H: "you look great"

....
H: "i am gonna go to sleep"
H: "maybe ill dream of you this time"
me: "i hope it wont be a nightmare lol "
H: "i do know how to control my dreams"
H: "oh it will be lol"
me: "cool"
H: "ok so i am going to go to bed. ive benn up forever"

(wearing the big protection computer glasses)
H: "HAHAHA i can almost see myself!"
me: "this is a special glasses for computer, so u wont get ur eyes burned.
H: "oh, i thought 3D"
me: "my dad gave it to me coz i got minus 5"
me: "look now i have 6 eyes !! hahahaha..."
H: "I GOT TO GO"
me: "ya"
H: "STOOOOOP...!!"
me: (took the glasses off) ok. happy sleeping :D "
H: "you look great with your hair down. i gotta go. you can see that i am very tired. my sleep now."
H: "you look great both ways"
me: "ok... stop..lol"
H: "next time i see you we will talk"
me: "sure. imma turn the cam off"
H: "dont forget to study!"
H: "bye"
me: "tommorow is a day off, i'll be studying whole day. byeee... :) "

you signed out. (04/02/2010 21:55)

east boy

You know I always say I like you.
because you're my favorite thing about the you-named-it 'east coast'
you're the nicest thing I've ever seen

You're my favorite boy
I love your smile, your voice in the telephone when you are admired.
I admire you so much

You're the puzzle I always want to solve
and sometimes I desperately kept it shuffled.
I always want to know what you are about
even though I know in the end, I'm the one who would ruin it.

I'd never forget
how I was horrified of your look the first time we were met.
And the same look took my heart away for less than three months.
I'd never forget
how I was shocked to found out that you were smoking green
the first time I saw you on your myspace album
then I told myself that I'd be able to change you, nobody else can.
So I changed you.

How I hated the way you dress
but now I never seen anything wrong anymore
when you ask me how you look.

Without you I spend the rest of my nights awake
because you're the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep

Without you I don't want to eat anything anymore
because I want to be hospitalized
then you'd know how I would be without you.

I got my 'Pictures' folder full
of your pictures I took with my camera and from your flashdisk I gave you as a present on your 26th birth day.
I don't think I'd ever put it in the 'Recycle Bin'.
Never in a million years.

I always think of you when I see things that you like
I hate you because you are in a band (because it made me looked like some-sort-of a groupie)
I hate you when you say you can't leave the band
Because I'd see the 'old you' when you are on stage.
BecauseI'm afraid to lose you again just like when I haven't found you.