About a love potion. About a life poison.

Oh, how nice of you to give a short reply

of my horrid insanity you found

had terrorized your lungs for as long as I live.

Why now? You grumbled. 

I know I had not been sincere,

I filled your tummy with my secrecy.

You bought it, you never asked anything about it, you said you were okay with it.

Kept spending every time and dime on me.
Then said the magic three words.

It's just a byproduct of your own choice

to self-destruct your plan. Which plan, you ask?

The plan to spend your life loving the one who loves you back.

Oh don't be such a puppy, you knew it's gonna cost so much more.

You knew when it's gone, you want more. You will follow, and it won't stop until the last breath.

And you replied,

"I wish I never met you."

Bus, road, and rain

A bus and road, always been very cooperative.
but now I hate them, since I could picture memories
The sweet-everyday-goodbye and all, was there on Wednesday.

I got on a bus to my West town.
But the road has managed to slow the bus down.
Then the storm came toward me, it was raining on me.
Along the road, in the bus.
They were mocking me. I knew it.

They wanted me to get off, to go back by another bus.
Another bus that says "Far far away to the East part!"
But why should I?
I'd rather cope up with the pain, than go unnoticed.

So there I was, rain on me in a bus along the road.

two years and one month

never being noticed,
always insecure

never loved, feels like standing beside a tree.
it felt so unworthy, and i felt so worthless.
waiting was the least i could do,
but it was never been in your mind.

I know you're happy now.
but no tear would drop, no more.
For you...

all bottled rage and confusion was there,
in one straight sentence I've said.
but you said, "whatever".
Always been, whatever.

And I've had enough...
Enough for you to fool me,
enough for you to trick me.
No more mercy, no more care..

for two years and one month,
You never care..

unhappines

Having a jewel that cannot be worn

Having a sweater that you can't put on

Eating a candy floss, but it tastes bitter

Listening to music, but it sound silence

Gather with your friends, and you feel alone

Scream your heart out, yet nothing came out.